I realize I've been absent from writing for a few days - originally this was due to the fact that I was traveling to visit family in Ohio for a family thrown baby shower!! This will be my last trip before William is due - since I'm getting closer to the due date, I want to stay kind close to home.
However, the weekend had an unexpected turn. Pain in my ear Friday, led to leaving my cousin's wedding early Friday evening, which led to absolutely no sleep that night and eventually landed me in the ER at about 2:00am because the pain was beginning to be unbearable. A quick diagnosis of an outer ear infection, with a few prescriptions (an oral antibiotic and a pain med) and I was on my way home. The pain medication barely touched the pain - the night continued with no sleep.
Saturday - the day of the baby shower. I was not well. It was wonderful being able to see family and friends, but I really wish I was able to enjoy it more. Had called my OB in Illinois and they had called me in some additional ear drops to help with the infection and inflammation. The night came - another night with no sleep. Sunday - time to head back to Illinois. I'm so thankful my mother-in-law had made the trip with me and she was able to drive and I was able to get a little more rest. After arriving home, still in intense pain, I headed back to the ER. This time, the infection had become more severe and eardrum had ruptured. Change of pain meds, a shot for the pain while in the hospital and I was sent home where I was finally able to get some sleep.
The 'mommy guilt' comes into the fact that I'm 33 weeks pregnant and now on an oral antibiotic, an oral pain med and ear drops. All have been deemed fine for someone who is pregnant. I also understand that mommy needs to be healthy for baby to be healthy - I have an infection (that eventually could get worse if untreated), I wasn't eating or sleeping because of the pain and my blood pressure was up because of the pain also. So I'm doing what I need to do to get myself better. Still hard for me not to feel as if I'm doing something wrong.....